I Still Believe

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The heart…

Deep purple-red and regal flicking as a fire queen.  Fierce loving.  Verdant rich with honeyed ambrosia like the slip of an absinthe sylph undulating the Anahata Chakra of the Heart – green.  Full loving.  Yellow like the gleam of sunshine splashing the earth’s flora and your beloved’s flesh at day’s end.  Golden light love.  And pure like the scent of a rose, a lone and potent stalk of lavender, the crystalline lily.  The scent of love.  All these things.

I still believe in you, heart.

Over lunch my friend asks, what was the most valuable thing I learned about people from teaching drama to children for 17 plus years.  I can answer in a flash, because I cherish this lesson, what I learned.  What I saw and experienced.  It is that the heart is good and loving.

Closing eyes, and resting hand on heart, you may feel it.  Even though bruised and clumsily veiled.  It is.  Good and loving.

I’ve experienced it in children.  Witnessed it in my adult yoga students too.  I asked them to put hands on hearts, their own hearts, and saw bodies soften, auras shine.

Anyone can prove me wrong.  Sure.  Easy-peasy.  Logic slashes and shreds in endless lists of horrid misdemeanors.

But maybe…  What if…  I refuse to let my mind lead me astray with these thoughts.  Hold onto power.  Don’t give it away.  Because it really can become dreadfully veiled with dire consequences.  Just sit and feel my heart.  And watch my mind.  Keeping it on my heart.

And from there I open my eyes and go out in the world and listen and really see.

And then I act.

Yes.  I still believe in you, heart.

Will you join me?

 

 

 

Holding Self Meditation

Dealing With Bad Faeries

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Bad Faerie art by Brian Froud

Although old as dirt, I’m still a novice.  A novice at this living thing.  Shadows and bad faeries linger and whisper nasty shit I know I should ignore.  I still wanna eat pie for breakfast, am sometimes tempted by the gluttony of vapid media, and give in to occasional self-pitying freak outs behind the wheel.  (Where’s that lavender?!?!?!?)

But I have learned a few tricks and I’ll get there.

First I have to say it.  Living is not about thing things being ok.   This is truth.  Conditions for many are horribly shitty.   Our bodies and minds are deluged with toxins and respond with dis-ease.  Even those of us living “privileged” lives are suffering.  Living on earth, at present, is not ok.  Bad faeries are afoot.

Why this is so and how it came to be, we do not know for sure.  There are many many fascinating and plausible theories, but really we don’t know how things got so off track.

But this disconnect is why I choose to bring beauty and harmony into the world the best I can.  Through perfume, yoga, art.

And why I meditate.

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Meditation Faery by Amy Brown

Life is about holding your own in this madness.  Only then can we observe clearly and thus bring action forward.   It is taught, we need to manage our “containers.”  By going inside self, holding self.  If we engage in spilling our containers, we give our powers away.

We need to connect with our bodies and feel our feelings.  We need to let feelings, negative or positive, burble – swell – and explode if they must.  We need to experience how they manifest in our actual physical bodies.  We need to go deep with this and own them.  Own it all.

This is life.  It is a roller coaster.  Allow yourself to experience it.

So much gratitude goes to my yoga & meditation teachers who encouraged me to just sit on the cushion, or stay in that yoga pose and feel my burning thigh for just two more breaths.  Just feel.  “Why are you in a hurry to leave?  There’s just another pose…”  And then taught me how to physically and psychically release and clean out.  To open myself to the TRUE NATURE of my HEART, and all of OUR HEARTS, LOVE.

From here we can create.  Art, beauty, harmony.

A Meditation

Take a few moments.  Longer is better.  But even 2-5 minutes is good.

Sit in a comfortable position.  Take a few deep breaths and then let your breath just be natural.  Resist controlling the breath for now.

Find a “space” of neutrality where your consciousness and mind can just observe self.  Like a little lookout tower in your psyche.

From here observe what’s happening in the body.  Don’t try to change it.  Just observe.  “Hip aches.  Shoulders tense.  Hungry.  Back feels good.”  Don’t judge these things or seek to blame or credit the sensations on something outside of self (your boss, the president elect, your lover).  Merely acknowledge them.

Go a little deeper and check out your emotions.  Again – no judging emotions, or blaming/crediting.  They are yours and yours alone.  Now just feel them.   Allow the feelings to well up.  Allow yourself to feel them.   If they are very intense take your time.  You are in charge here.  But stay in the game!  If you need to cry or breath deeply, totally cool.  In fact good.  Do it.  Maybe you will cry one second and laugh wildly the next.  It’s ok!!!!

Eventually  you’ll feel this has blossomed and the wave is receding.  More waves will probably come.  In fact, they will never stop coming.  This is because you are alive!  If the intense feelings stop, you are probably dead!  This is life!  So, hooray!  It’s ok to feel!

The whole point is that you learn how to manage and express them.  You own them.  You are in charge.

After the container is emptier it’s time to fill up with positivity.

In your mind’s eye create a picture of breath entering and leaving your body.  See it as a color or light.

Now you may choose to control the breath taking deep long breaths.  Upon inhale, breath in white or golden light or smoke.  See it entering your body; through the mouth down the throat, into the lungs.  See this light permeating your body’s cells, filling your body and aura.

Focus on complete exhalations.  With each exhale see gray or dull smoke leaving your body.  With exhale you are further releasing these spent emotions.  Release all of them good and bad.  They are over, gone.  Making space for the new.

Finally, hold your hand gently over your heart.  Your beautiful, true heart.  Know that inside your heart is true and good.

Surf the wave, ride the roller coaster, repeat…

Life.  F*G Messy.  I hope this helps…

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Good Faerie doll by Wendy Froud

Many Gratitudes to my yoga and meditation teachers and the community therein.  Among others – Turbodog Yoga, Tracy Von Kaenal, Shiva Rea, Invision School of Psychic Abilities, & Zen Buddhist Temple (Chicago).

My Anam Cara Missy

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Today I was watching Missy sniff the air again.  I get jealous of her.  Her ability to sniff so intensely…

I took to the dunes to sniff and write.  Which I did do.  With some vials of perfume materials, I did Plein Air blending (on my wrist) then wrote a little story about these scents.  (I’m working on a piece about perfume as theatre).

But a lot of the time I just admired Missy enjoying the dunes…

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Randomly, I am reminded about John O’Donohue’s book, Anam Cara, and I pulled it out to share a quote with you, dear Reader.  A quote about Fragrance and Breath.

John O’Donohue was a Irish poet, author and priest and I strongly recommend his writings if you are not familiar.  His book  Anam Cara explores friendships, love, states of being, and what it is to be human.

Synchronistically he mentions the very thing I was marveling over.

From Anam Cara

“The sense of smell or fragrance is deft and immediate…  Animals, of course, work wonderfully with the sense of smell.  To take dogs for a walk is to realize how differently they experience a landscape.  They are glued to trails of scent and enjoy a complete adventure, tracing invisible smell pathways everywhere.  Each day we breathe 23,040 times; we have 5 million olfactory cells.  A sheepdog has 220 million such cells.  The sense of smell is so powerful in the animal world because it assists survival by alerting the animal to danger.  The sense of smell is vital to the sense of life.”

O’Donohue continues,

“..breath is sister of spirit.”

And then linking fragrance and breath to spirit.

“The sense of smell includes the sensuality of fragrance, but the dynamic of breathing also takes in the deep world of prayer and meditation, where through the rhythm of the breath you come down into your own primordial level of soul.  Through breath meditation, you begin to experience a place within you that is absolutely intimate with the divine ground.”

Isn’t that brilliant?

I have no real point to make here.  Just wanted to share.

Here’s a couple more blogs about Missy, fragrance, meditation, and self love, in case you missed them…

Cute Dogs Smellin’ Icky Things and Jasmine

Kauai Flower Meditation

And here’s a blatant invitation to experience my perfume!  (Hey a faerie’s gotta breath too!)

Anam Cara, Eau De Parfum

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Anam Cara from the Phantasmagoria Series

“If you perceive the entire universe as phantasmagoria an ineffable joy will arise in you”   ~Vajnanabhairava Tantra…first century A.D.

 

And Happy Friday!

 

Blessed Samhain & Celtic New Year

May the rains sweep gentle across your fields,
May the sun warm the land,
May every good seed you have planted bear fruit,
And late summer find you standing in fields of plenty.

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Autumn and Mermaids

I love that this shadow holiday, Samhain or Halloween, is now celebrated so effusively.  The day when the veil between us and the otherworld is thin and porous with faerie contact palpable.

We are moving from the autumn, the direction of west and water elementals.  Our over arching consorts these past three months have been mermaids, water sprites, and selkies.  Helping us to connect to our deepest self through our emotions, sensuality, and inner mysteries.

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This fall found me blending up a mermaid perfume, which will appear in my etsy store when I’ve tweaked it some, aged it a bit, and then tested it under the glow of a full moon.  Finding the perfect dreamy balance of raw sensuality and fresh salty air proved to be a challenge.  Finally I found a delicious blend of oak moss, violet leaf, and sandalwood with neroli, roses, and a hint of jasmine.  I’m still playing with it, trying to incorporate my handmade seaweed tincture, but I poured some solids in these sweet little shell lockets.  I’ll list them in the shop soon.

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I hope you are also enjoying the beauty of fall.  Joyful, creepy skeletons and jack o’lanterns abound.  Death flashing in brilliant color and the seductive scent of decaying plant matter wafting curious comfort; refreshing in the cooler air.

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New Year and Earth Elementals

Happy New Year – Celtic style.  November marks the start of a new year in the tradition of the old ways.  We move into the time of the north and earth elementals; gnomes, elves, and dryads.  The quiet, solid, nature of rocks, earth, trees will soon be our companions

It is time to conceive.  To look deep inside, as with a night dream, and listen to the self in here.  From November through January we can ponder, what are our intentions, what would we like to manifest?  How can you bring balance to yourself and beauty to the world?  How can you make the most of this crazy life you have been gifted?

I’ll be contemplating which direction to take my meditation, perfume, writing, and faerie magic…

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beautiful packaging (picture not my own)
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a studio in nature (picture not my own)
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this… (picture not my own)

Perfume – scent, oils, botanicals and perfumes are powerful, sacred tools as well as scentual delights.   My perfume of choice at present is my own perfume creation  Dryad.  An all natural and botanical fougere type.  Dryad is an Eau De Parfum and can be worn easily by man or woman.

Dryad’s scent notes:
Cedar & Fir; Lavender absolute graced with the spirit of fern, Violet Leaf & Cassie Flower; Oakmoss, Tonka Bean & Patchouli

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Find Dryad Here

There are so many magickal ways to set intention and manifest, from ritual sex magick (no partner required!) to visualization.  As of late I’ve been exploring sigils, visualization, and faerieshaman stuff.  And of course oils and perfumes.  But these are topics for another time.

Ok, for now – one last share, a Celtic prayer/poem – “The Deer’s Cry.”

I arise today
Through the strength of heaven, light of sun,
Radiance of moon,
Splendor of fire,
Speed of lightening
Swiftness of wind,
Depth of Sea,
Stability of earth,
Firmness of rock.

Do you have magical ways of making your dreams come true?  Missy and I would love to hear them!

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Happy Halloween

A Scented Gathering For Mermaids

…You Are Invited…

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swish…swish…swish…Chicago

Our gracious hostess is the fabulous artist and sister mermaid, Sharon Bladholm, of Opal Glass Studio.  Sharon is a magical mermaid creature and we are excited to share our love of mermaids with you.

Sharon’s website is here-

Opal Glass Studio

Scent of a Mermaid

I’m delighted to announce Undine, the perfume, will preview at the gathering.  This first limited edition of Undine will appear as a solid perfume in lovely shell-shaped, locket necklaces.  Undine features a floral heart note of Rose, fresh Violet, and Champaca flower on a salt-air, marine base.  Like all of my perfumes, Undine is an all-natural composition.

Undine is an artistic expression and part of my mystical faerie realm exploration.  You can read my glimpse into the world of mermaids that came to me while gazing into a magical pool in the land of the fae here  –

Confessions of a Mermaid

I’ll also have my other verdant faerie botanical perfumes on hand.  Here’s my Etsy store –

verdant faerie perfumes

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Treats for the Mermaid Soul

Oh, and there’ll be treats AND free (brief) Mermaid Card Readings with my fantastic new deck – Oracle Of The Mermaids.  Reading faerie cards for myself and friends has been my passion hobby for many years now.  Most recently I have felt moved to offer these up to folks as a gift.  So check it out!

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Here be Mermaids

You will find the mermaids gathering on Saturday, October 15, 2-6 pm, in the garden of the Albany Carroll Arts Building, 319 N. Albany in Chicago, weather permitting.  Balloons will mark the entrance of the Garden.  In case of rain we will be indoors in Sharon’s studio.  Feel free to email me and I will send you my phone number so that you may text me if you get confused/disoriented.  doreen@verdantfaerie.com.

Please contact me with questions or concerns.

Hope to see you there!

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The Butterfly Chronicles

“Just living is not enough," said the butterfly, "one must have sunshine, 
freedom, and a little flower.”  ~  Hans Christian Anderson

~Here and There and Back Again~

In Which We Explore My Being Butterfly & You Being Butterfly, Butterfly Medicine & Faerie Magic,  A New Perfume, and Maryland

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Are You My Butterfly Buddy?

Do you suffer from “Shiny Object Syndrome?” Do all the glittering things find you landing lightly, following multiple passions, exploring and traveling?

You may be butterfly in nature, like I.  With magical super powers to perceive colors mere mortals do not and to smell with smell receptors (noses) all over your body.  How can one be expected to limit oneself in the face of all this luxury?

Yes, butterflies are a beautiful thing.  But sometimes us butterfly types get a bit of stigma as being, well, flighty.

(Like this particular blog post.  It is going to flutter.  Reader, beware!)

Of late I have been indulging in my butterfly tendencies, big time.  In January 2016, I gave up my condo and jobs and have been living the gypsy life.  An imperfect nomad’s life with the heart of a butterfly.  Fluttering along with me is my dog, Missy, and my verdant faerie perfumery in search of nature, beauty, magic, and of course, faeries.

Since January I have been to Guatemala, Michigan, Mexico (twice), Canada, Oregon, Montana, New York, and back and forth from Chicago to Maryland a bunch of times.  My theme for 2016 is action.  Could you have guessed?

It’s been wonderful, and I am at an all time happiness high.  I could not have done it without the help of very kind and generous people.  So I’m feeling extremely grateful too.

But sometimes I question my seemingly ill-advised life choices.  If you are also a butterfly you may nodding your antennae in agreement.

So I went on some faerie meditation journeys to explore all of these yearnings for freedom and lightness and shimmery beauty, and it’s accompanying self shaming.

In these journeys I organically connected to, and then made peace with, my butterflyness.  All synchronistically confirmed to me in the mortal realm with butterfly references in movies and podcasts I stumbled upon, faerie card readings, friends observations, and of course actual butterflies visitations.

You know how that happens.  You think of or experience something of deep significance, and then it’s everywhere.  Synchronistic.

And the healing I have found is that it is ok to be a butterfly.  It is ok to be me.  In fact it’s wonderful.

So, dear Reader, are you also a bit of butterfly, filled with yearnings for sunshine, freedom, and a little flower?  And do you have a bit of angst about it as I did?  It is not generally encouraged in human society.  Have you noticed?  We are expected to stay put and focus.  Of course there is nothing wrong with focus and productivity, but these expectations have sometimes made me feel bad about myself.  Just a touch.

Let’s be proud of our inner butterfly and flaunt it in the shining sun!

Recently while in Kauai, I discovered a beautiful flower meditation to manifest radical self love.  Give it a try!

Discover the meditation – Kauai Flower Meditation 

If you are not a butterfly type – why not give butterfly style a go?  Allow your senses to expand and experience more – grow some powerful yet delicate wings to flitterfly a little.  What new hobbies can you explore?  Where would you really love to visit?  DO IT!

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Some Butterfly Dope

verdant faerie loves beauty, perfume, and travel.  Hence, the superpowers of the butterfly are swoon worthy.

The lucky creatures smell more than us.  That is, they are more sensitive to scent perception.  Butterflies have scent receptors studded along the antennae, legs, feet, and other parts of the body.

Butterflies see colors we don’t.  With 5 or 6 color receptors to a humans 3, a butterfly’s eyes see more than twice the colors of humans.  Butterflies perceive more color than any other creature (except maybe faeries).  Dogs have the least.  Sorry, Missy.

Those flutterby creatures have a surprising reserve of strength and stamina.  Some butterflies even migrate.  The Monarch butterfly can migrate up to 2500 miles and the top butterfly speed is 12 miles per hour.

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Butterfly Medicine

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Still from the movie Bright Star, directed by Jane Campion

The exquisite butterfly brings transformation and magic.  A universal symbol of  joy – their dancing beauty inspires.

When the butterfly visits you, or you are feelin’ your inner butterfly flutter, you are ready for personal growth and emergence.  Ready yourself to experience any one of its life phases, caterpillar, pupae,  butterfly.  You may find yourself ravenously hungry, reading and studying voraciously like a caterpillar, or in need of a lengthy inner journey, pupae style.  Or you may soon gloriously emerge to explore the world with your ultra-keen, superpower senses.

Often times the visit of a butterfly coincides with a remembrance of a deceased loved one, a particularly beautiful and light being who graced your life with sweetness.

(Psst- faeries often choose to disguise themselves as butterflies…)

In Faerie Faith, faeries of the air are creatures of the city of the east, Gorias.  One of the four cities of the Tuatha de Danaan, from the tribe of the Goddess Danu.  The east brings the sunrise and new beginnings and hope.  Look to the faeries of the air and butterfly allies to aid you in your intentions especially when embarking on a new project, or if a situation might benefit with a dazzling butterfly touch.

If you would like to experience a more through Faerie tradition for yourself, I can recommend the teachings of Celtic Shaman, Danu Forest.   At present, I am enjoying the Faerie Teachings course.  It’s a wonderful addition to my spiritual practice and interaction with the world of Faerie.  Her website is wondrous to browse.

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A Favorite Painting by Sophie Anderson

Aromatherapeutic Perfume – Because Jet-Lag Happens

After returning from my last trip back from Hawaii I had really really bad terrible rotten jet-lag.  Day one I lollygagged about on a lounge chair, limp and deflated.  But on day two when I still felt my butterfly wings wilting on the chaise, I mixed myself an aromatherapeutic blend.  And know what?   It worked!  I was back to my usual self.

I’ve found it’s also fantastic for staying alert while driving on long road trips.

And I’d like to share it with you!

Butterfly is composed of highest quality all natural essential oils.  No harsh synthetic aroma-chemicals whatsoever.  Not a one.  It is a unisex body scent.

The Scent - 
Refreshing Pink Grapefruit, Mint, and Rosemary to uplift
Lavender, Geranium, and Clary Sage to balance and calm
Patchouli for grounding.

Butterfly is in a roll-on applicator bottle, in an oil base of organic fractionated coconut oil.  It is light and sheer and easy for transport.

Hello…

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Butterfly

Butterfly is made special order for you.  If you want a particular scent tweak on it, let me know!

And, as it is primarily a therapeutic composition, it is not composed to last a long time on your skin.  It’s function is to provide a quick mood and energy shift and then free you up.  Like a butterfly landing lightly, touching with magical grace, then fluttering off.

You may order Butterfly from my verdant faerie Etsy shop.  Cost is $25 per 8 ML bottle.

Buy Butterfly Here

Maryland

In closing I would like to share some photos of beautiful verdant Maryland fairieland where I encountered exquisite faerie creatures and people, was housed like a queen butterfly by kindly friends, house sat, made perfumes, taught aerial yoga, trained a wee bit on silks, learned a wee bit about gardening, visited watery and enchanting places, and went on dreamy shamanic faerie quests.

Missy and I have driven back and forth again from Chicago to Maryland 4 times in 2016!  It is a special place in my heart for it’s verdant natural beauty and quirky magical faerie culture.  I am forever grateful for the charming healing heart of Maryland.

~Places To Visit~

A visit the annual Maryland Faerie Festival, read my blogs about some magical experiences here –

The Heart Journey Gnome – Maryland Faerie Festival

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And Maryland Faerie Festival 2015

Here’s some pics from the annual Faerie House Exhibit at the AnneMarie Sculpture Garden (a wonderful place with sculpture and interactive exhibits) where I neglected to take a picture of my kind hostess and new faerie friend, Holly and I together.  But here is the house Holly made for the exhibit.  The Emerald City made of recycled materials!

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Holly’s Emerald City
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Detail of the Door
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More of Holly’s house, the amazing thing she did with plastic bottles all  in my favorite color!
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Missy, thinking of moving in.

If you like aerial yoga or are looking for a place to train on silks – Try Ridgely Retreat for yoga in Annapolis and Urban Evolution for silks in Baltimore.  Really nice folks…

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Me flying on the deck of my friends house.

Maryland Renaissance Festival – where I worked as a Mermaid when I was 18

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Amazing Faerie Ceramics!
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Lulu, Renaissance Mouse

 

I always gotta sniff out the best coffee…  Fell’s Point Coffee in Baltimore – Daily Grind.  A good place to do some eclectic people watching.  There are some truly unique individuals in Baltimore.

 

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The charming historic town of Easton hosts an annual Plein Air  competition…  Plein Air Easton

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This year’s winner – “Origin” by Sara Linda Poly

 

~Other Stuff Missy And I Did And Saw~

Watery things…

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View from my meditation perch.
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Mermaid at Fell’s Point in Baltimore.  Apparently the breasts are getting a lot of action!
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Missy, my shy cautious pup, who has also transformed, like a butterfly, into a flexible road dog.
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Fell’s Point, Baltimore
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Sea Shell Faerie
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If I ever settle down in a home again I want it in these colors of green and gold.

Perfuming and sniffing things…

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Coming!    Mermaid, The Perfume.  Read the sexy story here…Confessions of a Mermaid
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Also in the works – A scented Homage to Buster Keaton.
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Horsemint!
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A madcap perfuming session in the park  with a new friend.
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Plein Air perfuming!

Impressive things that grow…

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I think a squirrel ate this.
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Lady Iris
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Moss
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Gardenia
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Gnomes

 

Faerie contact…

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Remembrance of the city of Gorias
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The faeries took to “borrowing” some of my perfume supplies, bottles and such.  You know, things I have a surplus of and won’t miss.  Don’t think I’ll be seeing those bottles again any time soon!  At least they left a note.

 

What’s next?

Well, after wandering and roaming these past 9 months, I feel a bit ready to dig in deep with my perfume and writing and connect with loved ones and loved activities.  I’ll be hanging out in Chicago, and nearby Michigan.  That is unless I happen to need to off somewhere.  You never know what’ll happen with a butterfly, or a Missy, behind the wheel…

 

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“I got the first 200 miles.”

 

Thank you, dear Reader, for visiting my blog!

 

 

Kauai Flower Meditation

I Asked In Meditation One Morning.

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What’s Next?

Well, how about love?  Self love.  Big love.  Unconditional love.  Love of  dark places of the psyche, and light places too.  Gracious, forgiving love.  Lover of love.  Yup, especially self-love.  Simply, right here, right now.  Loving the self so intensely it emanates from self  like the fragrance of blossoms, permeating the air with sweetness and subtly infusing beauty and more love.

As you may or may not know, I’m living a nomadic existence.  I find each place I visit  holds a theme, a special message for me.  My recent stay in Kauai was not an exception.  And the message was, and is,  love.  Right here and right now, love.

Kauai

Kauai is a treasure trove of botanic beauty.  The island is one of the wettest places on earth, receiving more than 400″ of rain per year.  The result is a florid, lush environment.  For this, Kauai is fondly known as the emerald island.

Ever present aroma of flowers, White Ginger and Plumeria mingled with wet-green and salt-ocean welcomes.  Visually stunning too, powerfully craggy and jagged, volcanic, mountainous shapes are smothered with verdant fecundity.

And something is uniquely inspiring about the quality of air and light in Kauai.  Perhaps the angle of the sun, or the moisture in the air, or the frequent rainbows.

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But for me the breezes perfumed with blossoms were the ultimate vehicle of transformation…

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 Now

I had the unbelievably fantastic fortune to be the guest of a talented landscaping designer. Flowers were everywhere.  It was  impossible to escape their intoxicating perfume.  Almost a delirium of scent.  But a delirium that does not take one away from self, but to self.  Spirit of blossoms spoke to me in scent, “Be here now, be love.”

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A Meditation

I’d like to share with you a meditation that spontaneously came to me while in Kauai.   Inspired by the overwhelming beauty and perfumed air.  I am now on the mainland and have since practiced it wearing essential oils.  Still good.

This morning I wore Rose Otto for love, Frankincense and Sandalwood for their meditative properties, and Neroli for sparkle.  You may use any scent that speaks to you.  However  I  do recommend natural floral fragrances.  In my opinion synthetic fragrances do not have equal energetic vibrancies.  (This lengthy topic is for another blog!)

Read through the meditation once, and set aside a little time to enjoy it on your own.  Just follow your memory and heart.

Before the meditation I recommend applying fragrance to the inner wrists, breast bone (heart chakra), between brows (third eye), and ear lobes (like the sufis).  If you don’t like to have it on your body, put some drips of the fragrance on a tissue or cotton ball.

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Sit in a comfortable position.   Make sure your back feels supported, and that you can line your vertebras up comfortably.  Lay down, if you won’t just snooze off.  Take some deep inhalations of your fragrance.

Now, let your breath just be however it wants to be.   Don’t try to control or shape it.   Screw the deep breathing or any other techniques you know.  Just observe breath entering and leaving the body.   Abstain from assessing or judgement.  Let it do what it naturally wants.  Observe your breath as you might observe something very dear to you.  With curiosity, compassion, love.  As you’d observe a child at play,  your lover, a kitten, a beautiful sunset.  If you find yourself pushing or becoming frustrated with yourself, (dammit!  I am not loving!) turn up the corners of your mouth into a slight smile, and send love to the part of yourself that is being harsh, judgmental, and generally a shit.  Just acknowledge it for what it is and love it anyway.

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Allow this gentle observance to continue and add a layer.  This is where you get to use imagination.

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In your mind’s eye, see a flower in your heart center.  Imagine its color(s) and the petals.  Now imagine this flower expanding and growing until it fills the entire inside of your body, so you are essentially one large blossom.  The center of the flower is your heart center.  Stay with this image for a time.

How does it feel?  Allow yourself to feel.  Explore this sensation.  It is real.  Can you perhaps feel the petals softening you?  What else do you notice?

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When you feel ready, add another layer.  See the fragrance of the flower emanating.  Allow the scent to become a visual for you.  What color is this aroma?  Can you see it swirling around inside of you?  Does it create patterns?  Does it move in waves or in a steady rhythm?

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Now let the flower and its fragrance begin to soften the boundary of your physical body from the inside, permitting your edges to soften and the essence and aroma of the flower to swirl out of your body to fill your aura.  If you are unsure of your aura, imagine your physical body is in a sort of bubble and fill this with scent.

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Feel into the energetic essence of this flower.  If this seems strange to you.  Don’t worry about it, just go with it.  Try not to judge and again, just feel.  Perhaps folding your hands gently over your heart chakra will help you to feel or deepen the sensation.

There is such sweetness there – in your heart.

Here you may even say to yourself, out loud or internally, “I love you (your name here).”  Go ahead, repeat this several times until it is comfortable & natural.

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Linger with this sensation as long as you please.  When you are satiated, feel the energy, aroma, and the very flower get smaller until it is enshrined  in your heart.  There you may carry it everywhere and call it forward anytime you need a touch up of self loving.

It’s nice to ground yourself with a little food and drink after a journey like this.

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Kauai Favs

Other than meditating, here are some of my favorite recommendations if you are in Kauai…

Secret Beach

It’s a bit of a hike, and not really that secret (just ask a local).  Not really a swimmers beach, but it’s so beautiful and a little more secluded.  Clothing is optional.

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Mermaids Cafe in Kapaa

Get the mermaid wrap with tuna just seared.  Just do it!  They seem to be hiring.

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Kauai Juice Company (Kapaa and Kilauea)

Best juice ever.  Smoothies too.  I’m drooling…  Thursdays are free shot days.

Hanalei Farmers Market (Hanalei, Saturdays 9:30-12:00)

Fresh produce and so much more.

Cocktails at Sunset at Happy Talk Lounge

Call ahead and find out when the live Hula dancer and music is happening.  Get  reservations.  Get up and dance – I did!  (The drinks were not as wonderful as my hostess’ creations, as pictured above, but the view and music is great.)  Hey – and I noticed that most Hawaiian songs seem to be love songs for the people, land, and customs of Hawaii!

Weimea Canyon

A mini Grand Canyon.  Here the land goes from arid dessert to pine forest to lush rainforest.  The hike at the very end of the road is amazing, but incredibly muddy and rather challenging.  Bring hiking boots!  There will be mud!

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Metamorphose Yoga  Kilauea

An charming and intimate yoga studio in a picturesque stone building.  Open windows.  Ocean in view.  I took Amy Lin’s advanced flow on Friday.  A delicious, sweaty 1 hour and 45 minutes of play and spirit and good challenge.  Yum.

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Hindu Monastary

This is so worth the visit.  The grounds are amazing as are tours.  Call ahead to the monastery and find out when the tours run for they are not all that frequent.  Nearby there is a Rudraksha Grove for picnicking and collecting  brilliant blue Rudraksha seeds, or dried Rudraksha beads for malas.

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Also, “drive to the end of the road.”

There are some cool caves, fresh coconut water stands, another hiking trail, and a beautiful beach.  Then you can buy a tee-shirt in Hanalei saying “I drove to the end of the road.”  That is, if you ever come back…

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Thanks for reading!  If you try the meditation, I’d love to hear about it.  Love to you…

This post dedicated with love to my dear friends/family, Deborah, David, and Lulu.  Mahalo forever.