Was it the new moon? Already? And a spring new moon!
Time to plant seeds of intention!
If it wasn’t for my dear friend and aromatherapist, Miriam, (Kindred Earth Botanicals) reminding me of our shared monthly new moon mermaid card spread ritual, I’d have missed it in the frenzy of all my doing and then subsequent crashing overwhelm in the form of a nasty cold.
I’m doing and busy and running and late…
Trying to do all the things. And be all the things to all the people I hold dear. Which sometimes seems like everyone…
If it wasn’t for this new moon reminder (thank you Miriam!) I would have neglected, again, to tincture my Copal Resin. (I got a sizable chunk on a trip – read here – and was instructed in sacred Mayan alchemy to tincture on the new moon for 9 days.)
Back to all the things. The dilemma. All the things! I want them all! Do them all, be them all. And how to impart the faerie message to humans the beauty that is life and that each person is a perfectly imperfect incarnation of beauty, power, and infinite love?
Admittedly, I get jealous of people with single-minded focus. They make progress. They get shit done.
Me? I have so many passions and struggle to coax myself into just one or maybe two. But I get itchy feet, and I love so much all the things…
Sometimes I am harsh with myself though. You must decide, Doreen! Sigh. It happens.
So I thought this new moon I’d ask life, aka spirit, what to do with this dilemma of passion for many things. After all, why must I hold the reins?
Life, what will you have of me? That is what I will plant this new moon. Send me little messages, drop me a trail of breadcrumbs through the forest, and I will follow you.
First bread crumb. The mermaids (cards) told me to go to the water and feel. (Typical mermaids, water, sensuality, emotions, feelings, sex, love.)
I took the already scent-blossoming Copal tincture , a thermos of tea, my journal, and my dog, and hiked up a dune to a favorite contemplation spot…
Missy kept a look out. She can be very protective when I go into meditation / ritual mode.
Second breadcrumb. Scent-savor the copal. Inhale. Open the flood-gates.
Ethereal-sweet-resinous copal, I see you. I feel you. When I anoint myself and inhale slowly, I feel you in my heart and solar plexus chakra. You melt into me a lover’s caress for my psyche. The tingle-glowing within begins. From my heart you spiral down warmly engulfing my radiant center. A sweetness of crying for beauty of life. Love-tears crystallize and drop but do not sting. Bliss. You bring a miraculous bliss, sacred Copal. You bring me to my nature. My nature is bliss.
From this state, I persist with my query. What does life want of me? What does it want me to do? I’m ready to take notes…
I wait. In my mind’s eye I see a flash of lightening. Then, the surprising answer.
Life wants nothing of you, Doreen, except for you to do and be yourself. Life wants you to live. To live and feel your extraordinary self in this extraordinary experience of life no matter what you choose to do. So, the activity you choose to do matters not. Only feel into it. Be present with the extraordinariness of you.
Yes, do all the things. Do anything. Do nothing. Just feel.
Including having a nasty cold from overwhelm. Feel the sweetness and bliss of THAT!
Society will try to tell us life is ordinary and mundane. But it is not so. Do not believe this. Choose otherwise.
But we all know this, yes? Inside, yes, we do.
I guess I just needed a little reminder. Don’t we all from time to time?
Thank you, Sacred Copal. Thank you, Mermaids. Thank you, Missy. Thank you, Me.